I remember when I was younger always being adamant that if I had kids they would work in with my life. I have a career, I won't let kids change that, they have to suit my lifestyle, Blah blah blah. You can all stop laughing now. I'm sure you know how this little plan worked out for me. Once I had my first little boy I decided that I didn't want him in care all the time so asked my boss for a part time role. That didn't happen, so I then started planning to run my own business from home which was slightly delayed by having my second little boy. By the time he was about 8 weeks old ( and probably during one of my extremely tired, read INSANE moments) I decided to explore running my home based business again.
For two years I struggled with the start up of a new business, trying to create a client base and working all the crazy hours I could find around the boys nap times. It took over my life and for the effort I was putting in I just wasn't seeing the return. So two and a half years ago I took a full time National Sales Role. Doesn't get much crazier right? Well as the years have passed and my eldest has started school and my youngest will start next year, I've discovered that being a full time employee, plus a mummy and a wife has all gotten too hard. I leave for work at 7 in the morning and get home 7 at night and my work does require a certain amount of travel, that I just can't do. I am greeted by my boys ( one at daycare, one at after school care) every afternoon with "why do you pick us up so late", I of course have the official mummy guilt face on.
So its time to make a change. We have been chatting as a family and 1950s Husband and I have made a decision. Three weeks later I went in to work and told my boss I will be leaving at the end of the year. He has been very understanding and knew the trouble I have been having balancing everything. So what will the next few months bring? Who knows. Once I finish work, at least for a little, while I am going to spend the first time ever in my boys lives just being at home and getting our lives in order. Helping the youngest start school, allowing my husband more flexibility with his work schedule ( as he is a shift worker) ; and just generally being a 1950's housewife.
Will this work? Will I be a better wife, mother, person? Who knows. One thing is for sure, we'll never know if we keep spreading ourselves so thin in our rat race of a life. So for now I will finish work, and then get started on my home work. Being a wife, a mother and the most awesome ( and Naughty) 1950's housewife I can be!
Come enjoy this crazy ride with me
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