Mixed Emotions

 

 

I currently have about  4 days left in my full time job before I begin my adventure into the family.  I guess I am having pretty mixed feelings about finishing work for a while.  When I'm at work, I can only see all the good things about my job and the people, and spend a small amount of time each day, wondering if I have made the right decision to have a work hiatus.  Do I really need to be at home full time to offer a little more stability to our lives?  Would just working part time offer us enough of a opportunity to have a little less chaos in our day to day functioning.

When I'm home though, I get super excited about all the potential I have facing me for the new year.  Being able to organise my house, spend more time with my kids and husband, go to school sports carnivals and help with reading time at school.  Not wanting to cringe in horror every time the kids ask to do some sort of activity on the weekend that will take up what precious little time we have to clean house, grocery shop, bond as a family etc etc.   The freedom I will have to devote solely to my family life is going to be priceless.  Sure we will have to tighten our belts a little and I am sure I will get itchy feet within a few months and want to look for out of the home "work" again. 

That's all part of it I guess.  I know there are some women  on their soapbox preaching that "Women can work full time, be perfect mothers and role models to our children and the ultimate wife...We can have it all".  Maybe that is true, maybe some women can do all and be all to everyone.  I haven't met one yet who can, but that's not to say they don't exist.  Personally for me being the superwoman who does it all for everyone just isn't working.  So for now I am just going to be happy being supermum...... at least for a little while. ; )

xx